I have just spent my rent money on stupid online gambling.
I feel selfish, guilty beyond belief and so so stupid.
I work part time so don't get much, I am a mother, so why cant I stop when I know I have such important responsibilities, I feel a failure that I give in so easily and leave my family broke as a result. I don't know where to turn, my family and friends would go mad if they knew my secret.
They assume it's easy to stay away from these online sites so I hide it. I need to stop, and I want to so badly but I cant. I cant borrow and have got credit off any company I could to fund my habit, that nobody is going to loan me for my rent. I feel so scared and alone and don't know where to turn. I hate myself soooo bad

Come and post here- gambling-addiction/ You're welcome in the forum. Lots of other people have been through similar stuff. And know what it's like. How hard it is to get out of it. And that it IS possible to stop. You're not a failure in any sense. Gambling isn't easy to stop. It's a heck of an addiction to deal with.

Mostly these blogs are used for journalling. And our discussions and support goes on in the forum. It's easier to keep track of conversations there. Keep posting.